* up.

it has been a long time i am smiling genuinely. i am faking a smile everyday - to everyone. i am troubled - over many things. many things which i do not have a solution to. everything just seems so screwed up. how i wish i could go back to the past. i really wish.

on the other hand, there were certainly some events that i definitely look forward to, but i just could not lift up my spirit for them. as long as those unhappy matters are not solved, i don't think i would be happy again.

do me a favor. please do not tag asking me what happened, and do not approach me over this. i just want to be alone, yet on the other hand, i wish someone could shower me with concern. this is such a dilemma.

i am stressed up with life. everything.
i think it's just me.